Be professional and dedicated to your dreams and goals

Hi guys All is going well. Recently i got done with my reality show what i have been shooting for. It was really exosting and i had to put the most hard work I ever done I guess. So, u can see it on Chanel V since the last week of december "Fact supermodels". I am glad I did it but I also realised that reality shows are really really hard work, I believe now I became much more professional than I was and I grown quite alot:-))) Can't talk more about it since its not released yet:-))) Also I was very happy to meet my friend Pooja who was in Mumbai for few days. We had amazing indian dinner and chocolate overdose:-)))) I normally don't eat sweets but for Pooja:-)))) LOL. it was really lovely meeting. It's always great to meet people who are in ur close circle and whom u trust. Unfortunately I had some problems with my health but already leaving to Bangalore for a shoot. I think commitments are the basic things of life and especially professional ones ( since I am writing about my professional life more). No matter what people always should be professional and do whatever they are commited to. I will be doing amazing shoot in Bagalore what I have been waiting for quite sometimes:-))) U have to be really dedicated, professioanl and in love with anything you do, only than dreams come true and unreal things becomes real. I have one friend who always says what real and not, its totally wrong. Absolutely everything is posible and real in life, it all depends on how much u r dedicated to it and how much u love and how much passion u have for it. I like this quote from my fav book "Alice in Wonderland" "There is no use trying, said Alice; one can't believe impossible things. I dare say you haven't had much practice, said the Queen. When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." - Lewis Carroll

And i also think people always should work themselves and be more dedicated towards their dreams or goals instead of aking God or anybody else to make dreams come true. Dreams never come true if they are in "dreams grouppe". It's very important to take right desicions in life, rights means what goes from heart, only this is right what goes from heart and with passion. I hope everything will be fine with my shoot in Bangalore, cuz i'm not really well but I will do my best. I wish everybody to have a nice week ahead and always remember that love is the most beautiful feeling in the world and the main in life:-) Life is great and beautiful creation

Peace and love to all

Hare Krishna

Saidah

P.S. I know i can make a difference and be the change I want to see in the world:-)

These days.....Everything is changing

Hi folks

So many things have happened and still are happening that i dont have any time to write and dont have inspiration for it as well.
I busy with shootings and all that stuff but the most interesting thing is that I am looking forward for december especially for my birthday:-)))

Life has been good so far. Recently I went to Bangalore, what a nice city. Amazing restaraunt "Shiro", i had sushi overdose. LOL. Really good trip I had. I love to travel within India, discover new cities and culturies. I guess now I will be visiting Bangalore quite often if I will continue working with them ofcause.

I joined gym as well. I hate it but I think if u live in India u really need tot ake care of good and healthy life style since simply u cant walk anywhere in Mumbai, ofcuz if u live in Marina Drive that probably all cool, but otherwise cardio in gym is a must. 3 times per week, not more. Healthy life style is the most important thing.

2 of my films will be released in january, looking forward for it, especially for one of them:-)))) ;-)

Recently i went to watch film "2012", crap. I did not like. Same stuff like "The happening" and 'Day after tomm", but computer graphic was great, ofcuz with all computer technologies u can get really awesome stuff. And by the way I want to tell to all of u that end of the world is not gonna happen in 2012 or somewhere around, so live happy and be sure your kids and grandkids will live happily as well.

Apart of everything................everything is changing in life. It always transformes into something new maybe. It might be for good or for bad, but its always in process......... it changes and its in our hands what way it goes. I believe that person himself makes choices and follow them and only we are responsible for our destiny and for everything else, for what we have and we dont. Anyway I dont feel like to write about it now. There is something the most magical in the world - its butterfly. Butterflies are magical cuz being same it transforms few times, it changes but its still same. Its ugly caterpillar and than it becomes a butterfly. What a mustery it is, isnt it? Caterpillar doesnt die...........it becomes a butterfly and in same time butterfly is not caterpillar anymore.

I am reading a book "The monk who sold his Ferrari". Quite interesting. Can suggest to everybody. Maybe one day I will just pack up and will go somewhere deeply in Himaliyas.........U never know what will happen tomm :-)

Everything is changing.......and when I got up today's morning I realised that everything is not like it was before......

Love to all

Hare Krishna

Saidah

Back in Mumbai

....Quite a long time i was not updating this blog. I am just back in Mumbai and getting used to life over here. Will take me few days I guess. My time in Europe was great, had amazing time with my family and holidays as well.
....Same time I read few books what really helped me to discover alot. "Only love is real" by Dr.Brian Weiss. I read it on the beach in Mallorca and it gave me amazing feel :-))))
.....I am back in Mumbai and my life got upgraded in a beautiful way, i am very happy with it. will do my best.
To be continued....

Discovery...!!!

Today I discovered something what really made me think and understand certain people I had in my life. And I am sure this artickle will be quite usefull to many people.Sometimes in life we meet people and we think of them like they are crazy or something and give us stress and etc etc etc. We might think that we dont connect and that person has bad charakter or something and etc etc etc and we might think like "he is an asshole or she is a bitch", but in reality it can be something else. After I got this information I realize that we never should think bad about someone who "talks differently" and just do something what we suppose don't. Ofcuz there are people with very low IQ level and no manners but also there is one mental sickness. It's not like many people have it ofcuz, but still...........we might meet such people sometimes in life. There is one sickness what calls "Borderline Personality Disorder"."SYMPTOMS OF BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER"By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. June 22, 2007 The main feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image and emotions. People with borderline personality disorder are also usually very impulsive. This disorder occurs in most by early adulthood. The unstable pattern of interacting with others has persisted for years and is usually closely related to the person’s self-image and early social interactions. The pattern is present in a variety of settings (e.g., not just at work or home) and often is accompanied by a similar lability (fluctuating back and forth, sometimes in a quick manner) in a person’s emotions and feelings. Relationships and the person’s emotion may often be characterized as being shallow.A person with this disorder will also often exhibit impulsive behaviors and have a majority of the following symptoms:Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating) Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days) Chronic feelings of emptiness Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights) Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms Details about Borderline Personality Disorder SymptomsFrantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.The perception of impending separation or rejection, or the loss of external structure, can lead to profound changes in self-image, emotion, thinking and behavior. Someone with borderline personality disorder will be very sensitive to things happening around them in their environment. They experience intense abandonment fears and inappropriate anger, even when faced with a realistic separation or when there are unavoidable changes in plans. For instance, becoming very angry with someone for being a few minutes late or having to cancel a lunch date. People with borderline personality disorder may believ that this abandonment implies that they are “bad.” These abandonment fears are related to an intolerance of being alone and a need to have other people with them. Their frantic efforts to avoid abandonment may include impulsive actions such as self-mutilating or suicidal behaviors.Unstable and intense relationships.People with borderline personality disorder may idealize potential caregivers or lovers at the first or second meeting, demand to spend a lot of time together, and share the most intimate details early in a relationship. However, they may switch quickly from idealizing other people to devaluing them, feeling that the other person does not care enough, does not give enough, is not “there” enough. These individuals can empathize with and nurture other people, but only with the expectation that the other person will “be there” in return to meet their own needs on demand. These individuals are prone to sudden and dramatic shifts in their view of others, who may alternately be seen as beneficient supports or as cruelly punitive. Such shifts other reflect disillusionment with a caregiver whose nurturing qualities had been idealized or whose rejection or abandonment is expected.Identity disturbance.There are sudden and dramatic shifts in self-image, characterized by shifting goals, values and vocational aspirations. There may be sudden changes in opinions and plans about career, sexual identity, values and types of friends. These individuals may suddenly change from the role of a needy supplicant for help to a righteous avenger of past mistreatment. Although they usually have a self-image that is based on being bad or evil, individuals with borderline personality disorder may at times have feelings that they do not exist at all. Such experiences usually occur in situations in which the individual feels a lack of a meaningful relationship, nurturing and support. These individuals may show worse performance in unstructured work or school situations. How to understand people with borderline personality disorder ?There are three major areas that those with Borderline Personality Disorder have serious issues with. Those are long and established instability in interpersonal relationships*convoluted self image*extreme fluctuation of emotionsInterpersonal relationships are very tough for a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. They often take frantic and drastic measures to avoid imagined or real abandonment. For example, if a spouse calls and is going to be late for dinner because traffic is at a stand still this can cause a severe reaction for someone with Borderline Personality Disorder. They take this as a personal abandonment issue and assume the spouse is late because of something they have done. Patients with Borderline Personality Disorder don't want to be left alone, especially when there was an appointed time to be with someone.People who suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder tend to pour out their soul to others and then accept caregivers or others to focus completely on them. They may switch back and forth as they perceive that others are not caring enough or understanding the issues. One day they perceive someone as their best friend and the next they have become the worst enemy. The only change is the perception of the Borderline Personality Disorder patient. They tend to share personal issues and then imagine that others all know and are talking about those personal thoughts. A person with Borderline Personality Disorder may seem very shallow to others and they are often focused on themselves.Self image is a serious problem for those with Borderline Personality Disorder. There are drastic and sudden shifts in values and morals. They may switch from a needy self loathing person to a perceived super hero out to save the world. The tendency is most of the time they have a very low self image of evil or bad. Often there are suicide attempts and self mutilation behaviors.Borderline Personality Disorder patients often display impassivity. They may drive recklessly, gamble, spend money they don't have, binge eat, or have substance abuse issues.Extreme emotional outbursts are common. They don't usually last a long time for the person with Borderline Personality Disorder, but they are extreme in nature and happen on a regular basis.To deal with a person who has been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder one should be a steady rock. The term most used is non-wavering. With all the ups and downs they experience the people around them should remain the same. That is much easier said than done. Basically their behavoir is reported back to them and they are treated like children. They are given respect, but no excuses. Many professionals have a hard time treating these people because they are often the object of rage and outburstsP.S. After reading all this I dont really know what we should do if we have such people in life or somehow come across. As a human being I feel to say that I should help and etc, but in normal practical life I guess it would happen diffrently..............

Many Lives, Many Masters

Hi folks

It's have been a while I was absent. I did not write for a long. I think whole last month I was lost "somewhere". And before as well. Many things had been happening and I believe they are still happening. Lots of things have been descovered and archieved....mentally and phisically.

First of all my shoot for "Pyar Imposible" ( hindi Bollywood film) was fun, it was really cool expirience. This film will be released in november this year. And in october I have release of 'Right ya wrong" with Sunny Deol and etc. It was nice to shoot with Priyanka Chopra, Uday Chopra and Dino Morea. Really cool guys. Had really nice time together. Than I had been shooting in Delhi and had absolutely no time to check even my gmail. But I think it was wrong, I believe in our century people always should be able to stay "online and connected" especially now its very available on any electronical device.

It was also heavy raining in Mumbai. At the end of july my friend Angela came over to Mumbai for a while. I was very busy with her and with certain issues. Actually this time was quite hard and lots of depressions were going on and some missunderstanding, stress and etc etc etc. Everything bad what can happen I guess. It's always very hard to loose people whom u love and care about......We also have been traveling for a while....but unfortunately I have sad memories and feelings about it. Sometimes when u let person come to ur heart it can hurt a lot.... Now i have a sister as I bought rakhi for Angela :-) But as well good things happens. Suddently my good friend rockstar Vivek came back in Mumbai from holidays. I was very glad to meet him after a long time, I can always feel lots of positive energy from him and we always have kind of spiritual conversations. I respect him for that.

But also with all this what have made me so busy last two month there is something one, very very special. I have an angel in my life. And I'm very happy that God made him come to this world and be part of my life......always and forever. I always thankfull to God for this gift and blessing. So......Angel gifted me a book " Many lives, Many masters" by Dr. Brian Weiss. It's amazing book. I just completed reading it. It's a book about reincarnation and the point of life, about relations and etc. It's really amazing book, it gave me so much of knowledge, i really discovered quite a lot. I have always believed in reincartions and that sometimes we meet people in our present life whom we already knew from previous and etc. Our soul is eternal and it keeps travel in times.........it keeps to learn, to grow, to improve and be better. I believe in karma, to be good person and do good things. Actually it doesnt matter where u reach in life and etc, all what matters are ur feelings and what energy u have in u. I never get angry at people, in fact I love people a lot. Recently i heard amazingly wise statement "How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.” I liked this statement a lot. I think we always should be focused on being good and doing good, reacting good and what also matters a lot - having good thoughts and good intentions. In buddhism there is a lot about it. Whatever u say u have to mean it and thinking has to be positive. I always try to be better than I am and create positive energy around me. At the moment I have too many philosophical thoughts and it's kind of mess. I really have been missing writing due to my busy days. Just this book "Many lives, many masters" inspired me a lot and gave me answers for certain questions I had in my head.

Sometimes we meet people who give us wisdom, who makes us better than we are or who show us the right path. We can call them gurus or masters..........I have one life now.......maybe its the last one. But i met people who made a big impact on my life, who showed me right things in life and who helped me to become a person I am today and I also have such people now in my life, who can always give u right advice in right time and who can help u when u need........I am very thankfull to Angel in my life who gifted me this book. Thanx to him and all my blessings.

Soon I plan to go for holidays in Europe and visit my family. It's have been a while.........

Love to all

God bless

Saidah

Live Your Day

Today my friend Pooja sent me this picture. I think it's very beautiful and wise words. It inspired me. I always think same but it's important to feel it as well. It's important to feel life, to feel wings and to "fly". Live is here right now, there is no past, no future, life is a present, it's a moment....a beautiful moment what we have right now. It also takes certain practice not to think that much about past and future what most of people do all the time, but they should focus on present more and feel live right now without any thoughts. I don't want to write much at the moment....

I wish everybody to be able to feel the moment what they have exactly right now....it's beautiful and it's life.

Live is always for living..........

In harmony,

Saidah

Man and Woman. part 1

I was thinking about relationship between man and woman. And I understood it's very complicated and there is nothing concrete and in one way. It's like a river what can have many directions.

Geisha is a perfect defenition of a woman. Woman is a harmony, smile, peace, entertaintment, tenderness, happiness, colors and like blooming sakura tree. Woman is like a rose with sakura flowers. Woman is beautiful and I am happy to be one of this kind :-)

When I think about man than actually nothing really comes to my mind. For now. Probably in "part 2" it will. I think man is like a 'water" for a rose. Any plant needs water to bloom, so it's proI was thinking about relationship between a man and a woman....I understood it's complicated and I can't think only in one direction. I read couple of articles and all of them are so different. When i personally think about a woman I always "see" image of geisha in my mind. Geisha is an amazing creature, so fragile and feminine, so misterious and tender. According to me japanese geisha bably similar kind of relationship.

Sometimes i really think and question myself how interesting life can be and people especially. Mans are so different, they can be smart, inteligent, funny, redicilues, interesting, inspiring and just..........just man. Sometimes woman can meet a man who will "fall in love" very fast and will be telling her stories about feelings, about how much he can do and etc etc etc but.....but when ( based on everything he said ) she will simple ask something very small, than most probably he will say "no" and that he cant and bla bla bla. It's always very interesting to me how much people can talk and how little they can do. But everything is not so bad in life:-) There are also mans that sometimes you really think something and he is doing it before you even say or makes such surprises that you have not even thought of. It's also very interesting to me how different mans can be. And what i realize in life it doesn't depends on feelings and how much he loves, it is something else...........it's carakter of a person. At times I even thought it might be related to goroscope. I am not believer, but one of my best friend....she really does believe in it. And i trust her at times.

I think I would say it in a such a way that relationships between man and woman are similar to relationships between rose and gardener. It might sound ridicules in certain way but it looks similar to me. Sometimes a person really takes care of plants, and pour water at times and always think about sunlight and etc, and sometimes person remember about water only when rose is dry and dead.

Right now i dont really have time and have to proceed with my busy shedule

Just woman is like japanese geisha....................misterious and elegant.

I am happy to be a woman

Love to all
Saidah