Be professional and dedicated to your dreams and goals

Hi guys All is going well. Recently i got done with my reality show what i have been shooting for. It was really exosting and i had to put the most hard work I ever done I guess. So, u can see it on Chanel V since the last week of december "Fact supermodels". I am glad I did it but I also realised that reality shows are really really hard work, I believe now I became much more professional than I was and I grown quite alot:-))) Can't talk more about it since its not released yet:-))) Also I was very happy to meet my friend Pooja who was in Mumbai for few days. We had amazing indian dinner and chocolate overdose:-)))) I normally don't eat sweets but for Pooja:-)))) LOL. it was really lovely meeting. It's always great to meet people who are in ur close circle and whom u trust. Unfortunately I had some problems with my health but already leaving to Bangalore for a shoot. I think commitments are the basic things of life and especially professional ones ( since I am writing about my professional life more). No matter what people always should be professional and do whatever they are commited to. I will be doing amazing shoot in Bagalore what I have been waiting for quite sometimes:-))) U have to be really dedicated, professioanl and in love with anything you do, only than dreams come true and unreal things becomes real. I have one friend who always says what real and not, its totally wrong. Absolutely everything is posible and real in life, it all depends on how much u r dedicated to it and how much u love and how much passion u have for it. I like this quote from my fav book "Alice in Wonderland" "There is no use trying, said Alice; one can't believe impossible things. I dare say you haven't had much practice, said the Queen. When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." - Lewis Carroll

And i also think people always should work themselves and be more dedicated towards their dreams or goals instead of aking God or anybody else to make dreams come true. Dreams never come true if they are in "dreams grouppe". It's very important to take right desicions in life, rights means what goes from heart, only this is right what goes from heart and with passion. I hope everything will be fine with my shoot in Bangalore, cuz i'm not really well but I will do my best. I wish everybody to have a nice week ahead and always remember that love is the most beautiful feeling in the world and the main in life:-) Life is great and beautiful creation

Peace and love to all

Hare Krishna

Saidah

P.S. I know i can make a difference and be the change I want to see in the world:-)

These days.....Everything is changing

Hi folks

So many things have happened and still are happening that i dont have any time to write and dont have inspiration for it as well.
I busy with shootings and all that stuff but the most interesting thing is that I am looking forward for december especially for my birthday:-)))

Life has been good so far. Recently I went to Bangalore, what a nice city. Amazing restaraunt "Shiro", i had sushi overdose. LOL. Really good trip I had. I love to travel within India, discover new cities and culturies. I guess now I will be visiting Bangalore quite often if I will continue working with them ofcause.

I joined gym as well. I hate it but I think if u live in India u really need tot ake care of good and healthy life style since simply u cant walk anywhere in Mumbai, ofcuz if u live in Marina Drive that probably all cool, but otherwise cardio in gym is a must. 3 times per week, not more. Healthy life style is the most important thing.

2 of my films will be released in january, looking forward for it, especially for one of them:-)))) ;-)

Recently i went to watch film "2012", crap. I did not like. Same stuff like "The happening" and 'Day after tomm", but computer graphic was great, ofcuz with all computer technologies u can get really awesome stuff. And by the way I want to tell to all of u that end of the world is not gonna happen in 2012 or somewhere around, so live happy and be sure your kids and grandkids will live happily as well.

Apart of everything................everything is changing in life. It always transformes into something new maybe. It might be for good or for bad, but its always in process......... it changes and its in our hands what way it goes. I believe that person himself makes choices and follow them and only we are responsible for our destiny and for everything else, for what we have and we dont. Anyway I dont feel like to write about it now. There is something the most magical in the world - its butterfly. Butterflies are magical cuz being same it transforms few times, it changes but its still same. Its ugly caterpillar and than it becomes a butterfly. What a mustery it is, isnt it? Caterpillar doesnt die...........it becomes a butterfly and in same time butterfly is not caterpillar anymore.

I am reading a book "The monk who sold his Ferrari". Quite interesting. Can suggest to everybody. Maybe one day I will just pack up and will go somewhere deeply in Himaliyas.........U never know what will happen tomm :-)

Everything is changing.......and when I got up today's morning I realised that everything is not like it was before......

Love to all

Hare Krishna

Saidah

Back in Mumbai

....Quite a long time i was not updating this blog. I am just back in Mumbai and getting used to life over here. Will take me few days I guess. My time in Europe was great, had amazing time with my family and holidays as well.
....Same time I read few books what really helped me to discover alot. "Only love is real" by Dr.Brian Weiss. I read it on the beach in Mallorca and it gave me amazing feel :-))))
.....I am back in Mumbai and my life got upgraded in a beautiful way, i am very happy with it. will do my best.
To be continued....

Discovery...!!!

Today I discovered something what really made me think and understand certain people I had in my life. And I am sure this artickle will be quite usefull to many people.Sometimes in life we meet people and we think of them like they are crazy or something and give us stress and etc etc etc. We might think that we dont connect and that person has bad charakter or something and etc etc etc and we might think like "he is an asshole or she is a bitch", but in reality it can be something else. After I got this information I realize that we never should think bad about someone who "talks differently" and just do something what we suppose don't. Ofcuz there are people with very low IQ level and no manners but also there is one mental sickness. It's not like many people have it ofcuz, but still...........we might meet such people sometimes in life. There is one sickness what calls "Borderline Personality Disorder"."SYMPTOMS OF BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER"By John M. Grohol, Psy.D. June 22, 2007 The main feature of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a pervasive pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image and emotions. People with borderline personality disorder are also usually very impulsive. This disorder occurs in most by early adulthood. The unstable pattern of interacting with others has persisted for years and is usually closely related to the person’s self-image and early social interactions. The pattern is present in a variety of settings (e.g., not just at work or home) and often is accompanied by a similar lability (fluctuating back and forth, sometimes in a quick manner) in a person’s emotions and feelings. Relationships and the person’s emotion may often be characterized as being shallow.A person with this disorder will also often exhibit impulsive behaviors and have a majority of the following symptoms:Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating) Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days) Chronic feelings of emptiness Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights) Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms Details about Borderline Personality Disorder SymptomsFrantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.The perception of impending separation or rejection, or the loss of external structure, can lead to profound changes in self-image, emotion, thinking and behavior. Someone with borderline personality disorder will be very sensitive to things happening around them in their environment. They experience intense abandonment fears and inappropriate anger, even when faced with a realistic separation or when there are unavoidable changes in plans. For instance, becoming very angry with someone for being a few minutes late or having to cancel a lunch date. People with borderline personality disorder may believ that this abandonment implies that they are “bad.” These abandonment fears are related to an intolerance of being alone and a need to have other people with them. Their frantic efforts to avoid abandonment may include impulsive actions such as self-mutilating or suicidal behaviors.Unstable and intense relationships.People with borderline personality disorder may idealize potential caregivers or lovers at the first or second meeting, demand to spend a lot of time together, and share the most intimate details early in a relationship. However, they may switch quickly from idealizing other people to devaluing them, feeling that the other person does not care enough, does not give enough, is not “there” enough. These individuals can empathize with and nurture other people, but only with the expectation that the other person will “be there” in return to meet their own needs on demand. These individuals are prone to sudden and dramatic shifts in their view of others, who may alternately be seen as beneficient supports or as cruelly punitive. Such shifts other reflect disillusionment with a caregiver whose nurturing qualities had been idealized or whose rejection or abandonment is expected.Identity disturbance.There are sudden and dramatic shifts in self-image, characterized by shifting goals, values and vocational aspirations. There may be sudden changes in opinions and plans about career, sexual identity, values and types of friends. These individuals may suddenly change from the role of a needy supplicant for help to a righteous avenger of past mistreatment. Although they usually have a self-image that is based on being bad or evil, individuals with borderline personality disorder may at times have feelings that they do not exist at all. Such experiences usually occur in situations in which the individual feels a lack of a meaningful relationship, nurturing and support. These individuals may show worse performance in unstructured work or school situations. How to understand people with borderline personality disorder ?There are three major areas that those with Borderline Personality Disorder have serious issues with. Those are long and established instability in interpersonal relationships*convoluted self image*extreme fluctuation of emotionsInterpersonal relationships are very tough for a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. They often take frantic and drastic measures to avoid imagined or real abandonment. For example, if a spouse calls and is going to be late for dinner because traffic is at a stand still this can cause a severe reaction for someone with Borderline Personality Disorder. They take this as a personal abandonment issue and assume the spouse is late because of something they have done. Patients with Borderline Personality Disorder don't want to be left alone, especially when there was an appointed time to be with someone.People who suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder tend to pour out their soul to others and then accept caregivers or others to focus completely on them. They may switch back and forth as they perceive that others are not caring enough or understanding the issues. One day they perceive someone as their best friend and the next they have become the worst enemy. The only change is the perception of the Borderline Personality Disorder patient. They tend to share personal issues and then imagine that others all know and are talking about those personal thoughts. A person with Borderline Personality Disorder may seem very shallow to others and they are often focused on themselves.Self image is a serious problem for those with Borderline Personality Disorder. There are drastic and sudden shifts in values and morals. They may switch from a needy self loathing person to a perceived super hero out to save the world. The tendency is most of the time they have a very low self image of evil or bad. Often there are suicide attempts and self mutilation behaviors.Borderline Personality Disorder patients often display impassivity. They may drive recklessly, gamble, spend money they don't have, binge eat, or have substance abuse issues.Extreme emotional outbursts are common. They don't usually last a long time for the person with Borderline Personality Disorder, but they are extreme in nature and happen on a regular basis.To deal with a person who has been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder one should be a steady rock. The term most used is non-wavering. With all the ups and downs they experience the people around them should remain the same. That is much easier said than done. Basically their behavoir is reported back to them and they are treated like children. They are given respect, but no excuses. Many professionals have a hard time treating these people because they are often the object of rage and outburstsP.S. After reading all this I dont really know what we should do if we have such people in life or somehow come across. As a human being I feel to say that I should help and etc, but in normal practical life I guess it would happen diffrently..............

Many Lives, Many Masters

Hi folks

It's have been a while I was absent. I did not write for a long. I think whole last month I was lost "somewhere". And before as well. Many things had been happening and I believe they are still happening. Lots of things have been descovered and archieved....mentally and phisically.

First of all my shoot for "Pyar Imposible" ( hindi Bollywood film) was fun, it was really cool expirience. This film will be released in november this year. And in october I have release of 'Right ya wrong" with Sunny Deol and etc. It was nice to shoot with Priyanka Chopra, Uday Chopra and Dino Morea. Really cool guys. Had really nice time together. Than I had been shooting in Delhi and had absolutely no time to check even my gmail. But I think it was wrong, I believe in our century people always should be able to stay "online and connected" especially now its very available on any electronical device.

It was also heavy raining in Mumbai. At the end of july my friend Angela came over to Mumbai for a while. I was very busy with her and with certain issues. Actually this time was quite hard and lots of depressions were going on and some missunderstanding, stress and etc etc etc. Everything bad what can happen I guess. It's always very hard to loose people whom u love and care about......We also have been traveling for a while....but unfortunately I have sad memories and feelings about it. Sometimes when u let person come to ur heart it can hurt a lot.... Now i have a sister as I bought rakhi for Angela :-) But as well good things happens. Suddently my good friend rockstar Vivek came back in Mumbai from holidays. I was very glad to meet him after a long time, I can always feel lots of positive energy from him and we always have kind of spiritual conversations. I respect him for that.

But also with all this what have made me so busy last two month there is something one, very very special. I have an angel in my life. And I'm very happy that God made him come to this world and be part of my life......always and forever. I always thankfull to God for this gift and blessing. So......Angel gifted me a book " Many lives, Many masters" by Dr. Brian Weiss. It's amazing book. I just completed reading it. It's a book about reincarnation and the point of life, about relations and etc. It's really amazing book, it gave me so much of knowledge, i really discovered quite a lot. I have always believed in reincartions and that sometimes we meet people in our present life whom we already knew from previous and etc. Our soul is eternal and it keeps travel in times.........it keeps to learn, to grow, to improve and be better. I believe in karma, to be good person and do good things. Actually it doesnt matter where u reach in life and etc, all what matters are ur feelings and what energy u have in u. I never get angry at people, in fact I love people a lot. Recently i heard amazingly wise statement "How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.” I liked this statement a lot. I think we always should be focused on being good and doing good, reacting good and what also matters a lot - having good thoughts and good intentions. In buddhism there is a lot about it. Whatever u say u have to mean it and thinking has to be positive. I always try to be better than I am and create positive energy around me. At the moment I have too many philosophical thoughts and it's kind of mess. I really have been missing writing due to my busy days. Just this book "Many lives, many masters" inspired me a lot and gave me answers for certain questions I had in my head.

Sometimes we meet people who give us wisdom, who makes us better than we are or who show us the right path. We can call them gurus or masters..........I have one life now.......maybe its the last one. But i met people who made a big impact on my life, who showed me right things in life and who helped me to become a person I am today and I also have such people now in my life, who can always give u right advice in right time and who can help u when u need........I am very thankfull to Angel in my life who gifted me this book. Thanx to him and all my blessings.

Soon I plan to go for holidays in Europe and visit my family. It's have been a while.........

Love to all

God bless

Saidah

Live Your Day

Today my friend Pooja sent me this picture. I think it's very beautiful and wise words. It inspired me. I always think same but it's important to feel it as well. It's important to feel life, to feel wings and to "fly". Live is here right now, there is no past, no future, life is a present, it's a moment....a beautiful moment what we have right now. It also takes certain practice not to think that much about past and future what most of people do all the time, but they should focus on present more and feel live right now without any thoughts. I don't want to write much at the moment....

I wish everybody to be able to feel the moment what they have exactly right now....it's beautiful and it's life.

Live is always for living..........

In harmony,

Saidah

Man and Woman. part 1

I was thinking about relationship between man and woman. And I understood it's very complicated and there is nothing concrete and in one way. It's like a river what can have many directions.

Geisha is a perfect defenition of a woman. Woman is a harmony, smile, peace, entertaintment, tenderness, happiness, colors and like blooming sakura tree. Woman is like a rose with sakura flowers. Woman is beautiful and I am happy to be one of this kind :-)

When I think about man than actually nothing really comes to my mind. For now. Probably in "part 2" it will. I think man is like a 'water" for a rose. Any plant needs water to bloom, so it's proI was thinking about relationship between a man and a woman....I understood it's complicated and I can't think only in one direction. I read couple of articles and all of them are so different. When i personally think about a woman I always "see" image of geisha in my mind. Geisha is an amazing creature, so fragile and feminine, so misterious and tender. According to me japanese geisha bably similar kind of relationship.

Sometimes i really think and question myself how interesting life can be and people especially. Mans are so different, they can be smart, inteligent, funny, redicilues, interesting, inspiring and just..........just man. Sometimes woman can meet a man who will "fall in love" very fast and will be telling her stories about feelings, about how much he can do and etc etc etc but.....but when ( based on everything he said ) she will simple ask something very small, than most probably he will say "no" and that he cant and bla bla bla. It's always very interesting to me how much people can talk and how little they can do. But everything is not so bad in life:-) There are also mans that sometimes you really think something and he is doing it before you even say or makes such surprises that you have not even thought of. It's also very interesting to me how different mans can be. And what i realize in life it doesn't depends on feelings and how much he loves, it is something else...........it's carakter of a person. At times I even thought it might be related to goroscope. I am not believer, but one of my best friend....she really does believe in it. And i trust her at times.

I think I would say it in a such a way that relationships between man and woman are similar to relationships between rose and gardener. It might sound ridicules in certain way but it looks similar to me. Sometimes a person really takes care of plants, and pour water at times and always think about sunlight and etc, and sometimes person remember about water only when rose is dry and dead.

Right now i dont really have time and have to proceed with my busy shedule

Just woman is like japanese geisha....................misterious and elegant.

I am happy to be a woman

Love to all
Saidah

Happiness, Love and Kama Sutra

Hi folks

Life have been really beautiful inside of me for quite sometime now. My movie shoot is complete and also yesterday I was shooting pictures with Vikram Bawa "black and whites". It was inspiring and wonderful, he managed to get my real smiles and laugh in pictures what normally never happens. xoxoxoxo. It's wonderful to connect with people who truly love and in love with what they are doing. It inspires me and it teaches me alot. I have a big respect for it.

It's out of the blue but i have been thinking what is the most precious thing at my home and what's the most special I have? And i feel that it's one painting what is probably the most memorable and special thing to me. It was a gift from somebody whom is very closed to me and whom I admire and whom I love. It's the most beautiful and i am thankful to that person to gift me that feelings what I have and that harmony what I feel.

Life is so unpredictable and predictable in a same time. It looks but we also can predict if we know how. I really want to visit Tibet this year and to discover what I want to discover. I want to "feel" India again and I want to explore more places in it. I hope my best friends will have time to do it with me.

There are many things what are happening in my mind currently. There are so many things I plan to expirience workwise. I think showbiz is not only one thing what I want and can do and I'm inspired for so many.

This post is not about kama sutra actually but i called it "Happiness, Love and Kama Sutra" cuz I'm happy inside of me and I feel that harmony what i always wanted to feel, I have love in my heart and it's great. I have not read kama sutra, but yesterday I saw a book "Kama Sutra by Deepak Chopra". I did not have time to read it, but I could read few of this statements and quotes and I was impressed, I was really impressed how much he was writing about the feeling of love and tenderness, it was really beautiful explanations of feelings. I think many people (who probably doesn't have proper IQ level and who is not so educated) think that Kama Sutra is all about sex and sex positions, but it's absolutely not like that. It's about feeling of love. Especially i really liked views of Deepak Chopra in that his book. Will defenately read now.

I wish everybody to live in peace and harmony with their heart and soul.

Life is for living

Love to all

Saidah

P.S. I don't say this common phrase "God bless" cuz I believe you should deserve blessings by urself.

Cultural day - 'Shakespeare in love"

Hi folks

Today i had cultural day and it was really nice. Today I went to Prithvi Theatre in Juhu in Mumbai to watch a play with a friend of mine. It was my first time of going to theatre in India, for many years i actually even didnt know it exists here. I can't say that play was really interesting, but it's always interesting and beautiful to see performance and feel that artistic mood, stage. I love live performance and was really happy to have such expirienc ien Mumbai. Unfortunately theatre is small and probably cuz it's not so "on demand" in India and Mumbai as it's in London for example and Moscow. Now i defenately will go there often and I am glad to have such friends who likes it too.
I think all parties and fun are good and I love it too, but educated people also need "food for brains" and cultural programms. I think it's very limited when a person thinks only about going out and work. There are so many beautiful things in the world, there are so many to discover, to learn, to see, to expirience and etc. And i seriously wish everybody to keep discovering it and not to limit themselves from "food for brains".
Peace

Love

Saidah

To make a change

...There are so many people in the world and everybody has a reason to live, to be here. But in general there are two ways.....there are people who just lives and there are people who can and who makes a change in this world, who makes this world better. Most of people wants money, fame and etc etc etc, of cause it's all important things like everybody needs house, car, money and all material things 'cuz we live in material world actually. But when you already have it all, when you already have money and everything, what's than? Will you be happy? Of cause not 'cuz happyness is something what you have inside and what can be born inside of heart or soul only. Money is comfort and satisfaction, but its not feelings inside. No matter what person does, how much money he has and how famous he is, absolutely all people in the world have same feelings and same heart. Absolutely everybody are same and different in same (sorry) time. The difference is what energy you are giving to others and what your intentions are and feelings. Everybody can see sea and go for a walk on the beach, but feelings will be different and it depends only on your innerworld and heart. It's only one difference what people have actually.

I don't want just to live and enjoy life in a wrong meaning of it. You can enjoy life when your heart, soul and brains are in total harmony with each other and when whole innerworld are in peace and harmony. That's one kind of happiness and it's life when you can feel it and your heart, soul and brains "thinking" and "feeling" in same direction. I don't want just to live and think about my life and not to bother about other. I live in society and I live in this world and I am part of it, I want to make a change, I want people to respect me for what I do and I want to be proud of all my doings. I want to be a good human being and I belive that I am. I want to make this world better and I want people to see more happiness around that they see. I wish this to all people in the world.

To be a good person is the most important and beautiful thing. It's not just about good actions or to give money to poor people. It's not about that. It's when you know inside of you that whatever you do is right and you feel for it, when you heart lives in harmony with brains and you don't have to worry about anything 'cuz you know that you are doing right, when you can make a change in somebody's life, when you simple can make other person smile, when you can see tears of happiness. When you can feel light inside of you and when you can give it to others. It really doesnt matter how many times people go to temple. God is not in temple, he is everywhere, he is in every breath, he is in every peace of the world. He will never count how many times people go to temple. it's even so ridicules for me to meet such people, who actually really bad people in life and who treats others badly and without respect but they do pooja and think that everything is finesince they did it. It's so show off and ridicules. Why God will care about pooja (pray)? I really feel like telling to them that they should actually cut down with all poojas and concentrate more on the world around them and I say it. God is not selfish and he is not an icon, he doesn't need love only for himself, he wants people to love the world and be good to others. It what matters I think.

Sometimes when I go to village or small town in India and spend time with people over there and talk to them, i really can see happiness in their eyes, especially children. And ofcause life is quite poor over there. Happiness is only about feelings and innerworld that we create inside us. It's about beauty of the world what is always here but we don't see it always because we don't want to see it or pretend to be busy.

I wish everybody to be a better human beings that they are and to make a change even in one person's life.

I dont want tomorrow to be better than today, I want today to be as best and beautiful as tomorrow.

Love and harmony to all,

Saidah

Most beautiful thing

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Few days back i had very interesting and spiritual conversation with one of my friends, he gave me such ideas what actually never came to my mind before. What is the most interesting thing in this world? For this question can be so many answers but if you really focus your mind on it than u will find only one. It's life. The most beautiful thing in this world is life itself. And it's so beautiful and amazing to watch it grow and how everything is born. Sun rises every morning and whole city life stars with it. Plants grow and flowers bloom. But the most interesting creation is a humanbeing. A child. It's just so unbelivable. Mixture of "man and woman", actually just 2 small little things "get together" and than something happens, its just so tiny that we cant even see it...........and it grows and grows.........and than it's a baby, child and it grows and grows and than its big person actually. It's really unbeliveble how nature created certain things. It's so magical and so weird in same time that from "nothing" actually whole person comes out. And even they look different. All babies look same like clones and than they are changing and changing and changing and growing like a plant with a flowers. I don't understand how it works but i find it interesting. If you put a small plant in a ground than whole palm tree can grow, like from nothing. Why nature deceided exactly like this? It's weird in one way and in another way it's like a message to the world, like a reminder about beauty what we can't explain...

Saidah

Lucky photoshoot

Hi folks
I want to share with you my favourite photoshoot. It was quite recently and it was for Skoda car. But what really matters to me is that it was with photographer Vikram Bawa. It was my first photoshoot with him and this picture is like first baby:-) It's special and really memorable. I was dreaming to shoot with Vikram Bawa for long time and finally it happened. I was reading his interviews when i used to live in Delhi many years ago and since that time i wanted to shoot with him. Finally it happened and also it happened in a very special time of my life.

It's one of my favourite pictures and this picture is really very special to me.

Life is sunshine

Love,

Saidah

Just update

Hi folks

Now i am back in Mumbai, 2 days in London were really great. Sometimes in life such trips happen that change ur life or change the way u think and feel. It was exactly that case. LOL. This my trip to London changed a lot in me and in such way what i really did not expect. For now I don't feel like to write anything. Just i am back home in Mumbai, cooking lunch and thinking of relaxing sunday. Lots of things to do....

What I really understood that magic really happens sometimes, we just should always believe in it.

peace

Saidah

"So much so soon". Before London

Tomm I'm going to London. Oh, yeah! Can't wait for it. I have not traveled for very long time and feel really stucked in Mumbai. I already started to miss airplanes:-) In Mumbai it's really hot and it is going to be more hoter in may and june and than rain season, what a scary picture. LOL. But I dont have any plans, in my life i should not plan anything cuz things just happens and u never know what will be tomm or maybe who..........or maybe i will just fly somewhere to the Moon. I have just seen video of my friend with 50 cent. It was really cool and I miss Caribbeans. 50 cent must be really rocking over there. Sometimes its really funny, cuz i think i would not know its 50 cent unless he tells me. And my the way it's my fav band. And Akon also. But they look quite similar I guess..................yes... whatever. I have something much much more exciting............I am going to London tomm and I just can't wait for departure of my flight. For now I was in London just once and it was interesting, at least I felt that i'm going to be here again with something really big :-)))) Life is really great and I am in love with it. Sometimes we might forget it, how beautiful it is...........sometimes we really dont think of it, but we should..........i really think we should do it more often.
I would love to go for holidays in Tibet. I still have never been in Tibet. Thats really weird. "7 years in Tibet" with Brad Pitt was really good by the way. Ofcuz i dont plan to stay there for so long but couple of weeks would be nice, I believe there are couple of things that I still have to learn and discover about myself. Maybe i will find Shambala.
Something is changing in me. Somehow such things come to my mind what normally never happens and never happened before. It's funny, cute and in same time it might be ridicules or it might be beautiful. I don't know. But i really think alot about something when I never do. Maybe.........maybe i am in love? or maybe it's inspiration? If it's inspiration than why I did not think and feel like that before? it's not about feelings even, just couple of my wishes changed what I have never expected.
Today is going to be busy day.
I will be in London just few days but i am really looking forward.
Peace and Harmony to all
Saidah

Welcome to Wonderland

Hi folks. Welcome to my blog.

I was always bad with starting something and actually still I am. I really don't know how to start and how to write 'welcome note". "The first" is something what i never can do in a right way. I have so many thoughts in my head and so many different things, its really a mess. So I think it's better just to say "Welcome to Wonderland". Sometimes it's better to say less than to say too much..........but only sometimes.

Lots of people were telling me that i should write blogs and finally i deceided to share my "wonderland". So here we go. Speciallt for this I had to create email on gmail.com and it took me really long time to choose a name. It was even funny but i think it should be serious, I mean whenever u choose something for very long or long time you should be really serious about it and be confident in 100%. It's also midnight at the moment and I really have to go to sleep as tomm going to be busy.

Welcome to Wonderland once again

Peace and Harmony to all

Saidah